Friday, May 24, 2019

What a week with stupid people

As I type this I'm off from work with my partner ready to go apartment shopping. Yup. I'm finally making the jump to start my life with my girlfriend. I was initially going to wait until next year to head to Cali to live there with her, but due to certain circumstances I'm having to move out of my current location by August. This is for the good just for the fact that I don't have much control living in that space. I do have a basement of my own to play load music and such, but it wasn't enough to negate the fact that I still didn't feel comfortable even cooking in the kitchen. It's not their fault, mind you, but when someone else rents a property that you're under it just doesn't feel like you have freedom.

But I can't stress the fact that I'm thankful for the time I've been there. I've been able to create a body of work that I have currently on hold and not in the street sleeping in the car. That room taught me how to sleep in the dark whether in the night or in the morning. I don't get any sun there. It's kinda depressing to tell you the truth.

Alas, I've been able to survive this long and I'm hoping that I'll still be able to save money on this transition. I'm definitely hoping to live in California soon, but we gotta do this shit right ya know? I'm tired of Connecticut and I thought that living in the East Coast would be grand, but I realize I just don't belong here. Isolation is definitely huge amongst myself and other people. I can't handle it anymore. It's fucking with my mental.