It's already the end of the year

Wednesday, December 29, 2021

I need to make more effort to write on this blog more. I know I've stated awhile back that I'd take a break on being actively creative, but I think I want to start writing more again. I do miss expressing certain things that I keep in my head waiting to be put down on a post or on paper. I miss trying to achieve some goals throughout the year to make sure that I'm at my game with my work. But you know... I think I have achieved a bit of progress with my creative outlet. I just don't showcase it online very much.

I recently put this up on Bandcamp and some streaming platforms. The title of this track "I'm not Ready for the Cold Winter Blues" was certainly inspired by my dad, but composed in my way of approaching blues style standards. I always thought that the blues could go somewhat deeper if given the right chord voicings and arrangement. I know I could've went more standard on this composition, but in the end my stubborn self wanted to approach it in the style of LST LVS. I can't seem to stray away from my EMO / Indie / Mathrock roots. I usually try to create a body of work with those parameters in mind. Thinking about it now I'm realizing how open I've been about integrating more influences to my music. Over the last few years I've come to take interest in KPop & City Pop styles and allowed more Hip Hop & R&B to be a thing for me as well. I think in the new body of work that's become even more present that usual.

In the photography front there's not that has changed really. Given the circumstances of my days I don't usually photograph outside of my usual schedule, but I'm finding it comforting to be able to do this body of work in my own pace. I'm beginning to see a lot of people ween out of photography like it was a distant memory they've wanted to forget. Somehow people's testament in this medium veers to a negative right with loads of stop signs and ends. In the back of my mind I kinda knew that something was going to change for those photographers. That's when I knew I would just do it for the purpose for myself and not other people. Not to mention that many folks that I follow have this weird relationship with it right now. I'm glad I'm a nobody and no one, but a couple of people, do appreciate the body of work I create.

Right now I'm using my photographs as a starting point on how I want to approach a record. It's been giving me a pretty good set of parameters to go off from when I'm thinking about how I want to compose a song. Writing has been slow, but it's been fun as well. Listening and enjoying some of the moments that I record as well as the images that I edit for the project has been awesome. I'm not sure if this has been a best time of my life being creative, but I do know that it's the best time to be creative. There are so many things I want to do, but I have to save them for later.

I'm definitely happy about my situation. The world is still kinda weird right now, but I'm enjoying this amount of solitude with my loved one. I might be staying inside for another longer period of time, but if that's the case I'm definitely ready for it. I may write another post before the end of the year. Until then thank you all for being around. I miss you all.



Support your loved ones. Sometimes it could be the clothes you've never wore before

Friday, October 15, 2021

Awhile ago I had the pleasure of purchasing an outfit that my friend Anthony was selling through his former Bob Cut Mag company. He recently had started up And Our and has been forwarding this concept of unisex branded clothing. I've been watching up close and a bit afar to see what I can rock. There's an outfit that was influenced by me and was made specially to my frame. I couldn't believe it, but man it was an honor to actually have someone like Anthony tell me an outfit was influence by me and my personality. Thank you Anthony. You're the best and I'll do my best to help parade the cause you are trying to promote.


A Letter to My Friends I Haven't Spoken to for Nearly 10 Years Until August 21st, 2021

Tuesday, August 24, 2021

It was weird seeing all these folks for the first time in nearly 10 years. I haven't kept up with many of them (and even that much with Colby) and have been doing my own thing for a long time. Arriving at the event was a bit anxiety inducing. What was I gonna say? How do I look? Did I have any past beefs?

no. not at all

In fact every single one of them came to me with open arms. I was surprised what changed and what stayed the same. The friendship I made with them years ago sort of picked up where it left off. It was a bit overwhelming. Overwhelming because I don't really have any friends here in Connecticut. And to come back and see everyone that has helped me become the way I am today was realized the moment I stepped through that door with my girlfriend. It's been a long time. A long time not knowing what the fuck is going on.

This is the first time I've felt relieved about something I wasn't sure I was relieved about. Maybe the fact that everyone is doing alright. But at this point I just hope I can make more memories with these folks and keep in touch.

Dear Colby,
I'm sorry I haven't been there all these years. Maybe ongoing I'll call you / text you just see how things are even for just a bit. Thank you for inviting me to your wedding, home and life again. Thank you for having my girlfriend feel comfortable being part of the whole thing. I just wish I made more time for you back then. Never too late right?

Love you Colby,