Thursday, May 18, 2017

I'm gonna try to do my best to figure out how to increase movement on both the blog and my distribution. My current job looks like it's about to crumble and I'm at that point where I'm ready to just leave the damn place and figure shit out myself. Of course, it'd be dumb just to suddenly quit without having any kind of backup plan, but I intend to get something going before my departure.

But I'm in that moment where I'm scared of what may come. This is almost the same feeling I had when I was unemployed and didn't have anything going on. This was about 5 years ago that I had the issue of being trapped at home with no one to talk to and no one to hang out with. It was lonely those years and I'm surprised that I had gotten over that hurdle. The crappy part is that I've built this foundation with some of these people that I call friends and it's been so awesome to share some experiences with them. I'm just afraid that I'll be going through that same thing again when it's all over.

I'm talking crazy, I know, but I can't help feel that the future looks a little bleak right now. The state is currently under high alert on the budget, our grading rubric with DSS is VERY rigid, and on top of that the workplace is starting to feel more like a jail cell. It's absolutely nuts.

I'm not sure what will come of the next few weeks, but jeez man.. it look like it's not going to be very good.