I GUESS THINGS ARE ALRIGHT FOR THE MOST PART

Since my last written post and the events that I have spoken about for the last few weeks things have been okay. I still struggle a bit financially and am trying my best to save money, but at this moment things are looking a little better than usual. My mood has changed, the weather has changed, my outlook on life has changed, and just trying to make changes period.

Just this past week I started a workout routine that I thing will help me on the long run. I tried doing the INSANITY workout in the mornings, but it didn't help that I had to keep up with all this nonsense almost everyday. I mean.. yes.. I was pretty healthy for the most part, but I was also just straight tired all the time. The routine died out after a few months and I started just getting lazy again. That sort of killed everything for me.

I gained a bit of weight after that. Not to the point where my body was starting to become obese, but to the point I realized that I was getting out of shape. I've been skinny all my life. I don't really want to deal with trying to workout so hard to shed pounds that I could've prevented. And that's what I'm doing.

I've learned that if I started just doing certain things each day that the routine will be much more interesting. Mondays, Wednesdays, Saturdays are my cardio and Tuesdays and Wednesdays are my weight training. Sundays I'll most likely do some sort of lifting of sort, but it depends how I feel that day.

The point is that I started working out not just for my health, but to help relieve my anxiety, depression and to help clear my mind of things that put me down. I think that it has helped me start becoming more creative as well. And that is essentially why I started working out. If I'm not healthy mentally and physically how healthy will my projects be? That's one scary thought for me.

Most of my friends are going to the gym and trying to make a better life for themselves no matter how shitty their days have been. That's truly an inspiration to me. They're choosing to do something with their health than just dreading on things. It's hard not to do that, I know for sure, but trying to act upon making your situations better... like why hasn't many people thought of that? I guess things are starting to make more sense now.

I'm still making the transitions to becoming an artist full time. I think that just doing what I do now will only help me on the long run.