Friday, February 12, 2016

I haven't had a chance to write any direct text posts for a bit considering the amount of work I've been pummelled with over the last few weeks. I swear I need to find a new job before I die trying to help someone get Medicaid.

Work life sucks. It fucking sucks. And I say this because after work I don't find the motivation to do anything other that eat and sleep. I hate feeling this way. It also doesn't help that we've had some snow and the cold just pierces your face. That's something I'm not really down for.

But I have been making the most out of my time. I've written the final set of songs for my old band, Elmo Marconi (yup.. gonna try to write a full album), written solo music (black metal, punk, emo.. you know) and just been listening to music that is sort of out of my region of listening. Photography?... well to be honest I've been just shooting pictures and not really thinking about the outcome of what could be. I've started editing my work here and there, but it isn't something I'm ready to deal with full throttle quite yet.

I've also started feeling pretty down on certain occasions. Over the last few weeks there have been a number of things that have been bothering me:

1. my job
2. what i want to do in my life
3. is photography worth my time
4. why am i doing this?
5. what the hell is a blog?

It's beginning to become pretty bothersome and today I've decided to call in sick to just re route my thoughts and feelings. I work hard to make money that ends up being spent on food, gas and bills. My wife, far more successful than me, is getting opportunities of a lifetime. People are leaving the company. People are enjoying their life.

And I'm here....

And I don't know what I'm doing...