Friday, February 26, 2016

I'm not sure why this year seems so much more different. After three years of working for the same company I'm ready to work elsewhere. Not in the same type of position, but in the position that requires more creativity. As you know (or for the people that follow me here) I've been working as a team lead at a division processing medicaid insurance. It's quite boring, but it provides me the means of getting the things I want and need.

A video posted by @buenopower on

So this is me doing this shit all day 40 hours a week. It's a little depressing and the realization that I'm good at something that I don't care about makes it even worse. Again.. this is my reality that I have to face all the fucking time.

But just recently I've gained the motivation to start working as an artist rather being just an "artist". I don't know if that means I have to start reaching out to clients and make shit happen, but this is what I have to get into in order for my degree to not necessarily go to waste. I don't plan on working for some big ass company doing dirty work of photographs, but I do plan on doing more commissioned based stuff.

Though I can't necessarily steer away from my 9-5 job I have to at least make the effort of starting something on the side to make myself feel more complete. I mean.. I should consider myself lucky that I have a job. In fact.. I make more money than a lot of my friends. It's so weird to me. In a way I kinda scammed these people into thinking that I was right for the job.

I hope that things will start coming through in the next few weeks. Fuck.. because this place is going to bury me alive.